Stay at Home Mom – Week 5

Now that I have been a SAHM for a whole month now, I wanted to write about my feelings about it. I have R home with me every day, and L still goes to a full day of preschool/daycare 5 days a week. I had both kids home with me last Friday and I was at the end of my rope by 2 pm. I think that it will get better when L is more used to being at home with R and I. He was just very demanding of my attention that whole day, which made it very difficult to take care of R and give her attention too.

Overall, I am enjoying the time that I have at home. I am able to pursue my dream of having a career where I am able to use my creative side, but I am also able to work flexible hours that I dictate. The day-to-day stuff is pretty tedious, but each sale or custom item request I get through my shop makes each day a little different. I am still trying to find the balance between cleaning, working on my shop, playing with the kids, and cooking that works best for our family. I have been spending more time playing than cleaning, but I doubt I will ever regret that! I am glad that I made my shop, it give me something that is mine. Something that is not about being a mom or wife.

Both kids like having me home, that is clear. R is eating good, gaining weight, and has hit a bunch of milestones this past month. L likes having me take him to school and daycare, especially because when I drop him off or pick him up I am not rushing around. I can take the time and have him show me what he did at school that day, I can give him the extra snuggles he asks for (demands) when he is having a rough morning. Our weekends have also become more fun, because now we are not spending the whole time running errands and cleaning house; we can do fun things on the weekend now!

I don’t know how long I will really be able to stay at home. Financially, it is still a big challenge (especially since we just got another hospital bill from R’s birth), but personally I am finding it very fulfilling. I am noticing the lack of adult interaction, but I am hoping to find a group of moms/dads that I can join. If not, I can always start my own group.

Wow, that is quite a rambling stream of consciousness. Oh well, that is what I came to write today, so that is what you get. Proofreading is for suckers. LOL

Inspiration Lacking

Now that I have had my ETSY shop open for a week, I am finding it difficult to think of items to make.  I started with monthly milestone cards and baby milestone cards, because I had some friends that were looking for something like that.  Beyond repeating those with different designs, I am at a loss on what to make.

My inspiration usually comes only when prompted.  Be it a writing prompt, a request from someone for a custom design, or the need for something to fulfill a need in my home; I am not a muse of great ideas.  One friend suggested that I make chalkboard signs for weddings, but looking on ETSY, there are a million (only slight exaggeration) of those already.  I will go ahead and start making them, until I can think of something better.  In the meantime, I will wait for more inspiration to come my way.

I guess I am not naturally a creative thinker.  I follow instructions, follow the rules, and just put my own flair on things.  Kind of depressing, actually.  Maybe it is just the rain outside.

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Stay at Home Mom – Week 1

I have been absent from blogging recently due to some major changes in my life. I recently quit my job and decided to be a stay at home mom for a little bit. Many reasons contributed to my quitting: R not taking a bottle and being up all night, lack of support at work, and feeling like my kids need me more than my job values me are among a few of them.

For the next few months, I will be a SAHM (stay at home mom). I know that there will be an adjustment period for me and the kids, but after that, I hope to be able to decide whether I want to go back to work full-time, part-time, or at all. Right now, I am enjoying being at home with R (L is still going to preschool/daycare for the moment). I am not getting much done around the house, nor have I had much time for blogging, but I feel like R is sleeping better and in a better mood in general with me at home. I know that I am in a better mood too.

Educated OwlTo help offset the mental stagnation of being a SAHM, and to hopefully provide some supplemental income, I have started an ETSY shop. I only have a few items listed, but the 2 sales that I have gotten so far have made me giddy with happiness. I would love to be able to make this a part-time gig for me, allowing me to stay home with the kiddos and work on my own schedule. I guess we will see if my designs are popular enough to support that.  Feel free to click the image to the left and check out my shop.  Any constructive feedback on current or future items would be welcome!

My Favorite Shops – Man Edition

I don't have as many favorite shops to buy J presents at, but I do have a few.  These are shops that I have previously purchased from or I have gotten wish list items from J from.  Once again, I have not been compensated in any way for this post

iusb_760x100.12449850_kv24I love the scents of their shaving products, and J loves their beard oil.  I got him a sample kit of the beard oil for Christmas last year and he uses it daily.  He says that it makes the skin less itchy, and I can see that it makes the hair softer and more manageable.  They also have other bath/beauty products for men and women in their shop (I am eyeing the lip tints).

115e_TG_logoIf you have a geek that you know and love, you have probably already found this shop.  It is the best conglomeration of shirts, toys, food, and accessories that any geek or nerd would like.  There is something for everyone here!  I love the giant microbes, no surprise since I am a microbiologist, and J likes the cube warfare gear.  I have also bought my brother many a t-shirt from here for various holidays.

 

 

bellroyJ is very picky about his wallet.  It has to have the right number of slots for cards, not be too thick, and fit in his pocket just right.  He found this site and sent it to me as his wish list for future gift ideas.  They have very high quality wallets, a little pricey, in different sizes and configurations.

Work, work, work

Now that I am back to work full-time, after a short bout of pneumonia, I am having a hard time figuring out what my goals are.  I love my children and want to be there for them, especially since schools/daycare/activities in my town seem to always end at 5pm.  Being there for them is really difficult with my current hours and commute.  On the other hand, I am enjoying working on my projects, having adult interaction, and bringing home a paycheck.  I guess this is the dilema of every mom out there; what is the balance between what is best for me and what is best for my family.

Guilt Attack

This morning, as I was sitting on the couch feeding R, L scoots over next to me and lays his head on my shoulder.

L: I love you, Mommy.
Me: I love you too.
L: I miss you, Mommy.
Me: I miss you too, Buddy.

Enter the working mom guilt.

L has been having a hard time since I went back to work.  R has been having a hard time too, but I think her issue is more that she still refuses the bottle.  L got used to me being home and having energy to play with him in the evening.

It’s all coming back to me now

Yep, slowly but surely the weight is coming back.  Despite my healthy-er eating and a little exercise.  (I cropped out the actual numbers, because I just don't want to share that depressing fact with the world)

Weight chart 07-30-14

Let's be honest, when do I have time to exercise?  Either before the family wakes up or after the kids go to bed.  That leaves me with 4 am or 10 pm.  Really.  I am not exaggerating.  Who wants to wake up that early?  I know I should have done better while on maternity leave, but there always seemed to be something more important to do.  I am trying not to make excuses, but I just keep hitting bumps in the weight loss road that trip me up.  I need to get better at making exercise a priority.

As you can see, I did really good for the first month that R was around, but then it started creeping back upward.  No I am fighting off pneumonia and the cough is making it really hard to do any type of exercise.  So, while I am waiting for my z-pack to work, I am going to mentally psych myself up for some ass-kicking in August.  I have the 4th Trimester Body pictures then and I would like to feel comfortable in my body.  Even if I have only lost a couple of lbs, I think that little bit will make me feel infinitely more positive.