The first day of NaBloPoMo and I am going with the suggested topic: Where do I get my energy?
First thought: What energy? Second thought: That is a damn good question for today…
Yesterday, being NYE and all, I spent the day with L who was being incredibly grumpy. Trying to entertain a grumpy toddler and listen to constant whining is exhausting! After J got home, we then went to the in-laws for a NYE party. Fun was had by all and we made it home at 2 am safely. Normally we are in bed by 10 pm because L wakes up at 6 am like clockwork (when do they learn to sleep in on the weekends?), but we decided to throw our sanity to the wind and stay up late. Woo!
Now it is New Years Day and I am thankful that L was tired enough to sleep until 7. I feel like a zombie. Somehow we managed to motivate ourselves to remove the shower doors in L’s bathroom this morning (we are hangover free today!). Now, it is nap time and J is mowing the lawn while I ramble on and on and on. And I wonder, where am I getting my energy? I feel like I have none. At all. So, I am going to make a list of the things that make me get off of my ass every day.
- L is my biggest source of energy (and my biggest energy drain sometimes). L pushes me to get up in the morning and take care of him and go to work. I have to slog through the day to help provide a good life for him. Then I come home and he runs to me saying “Mammamama!” and I have the energy to laugh again.
- Coffee also is a big energy provider. I don’t think I will ever have another child because I could not give up coffee again.
- Doing a project gives me energy. I get excited and motivated to get a project started (finishing it is an entirely different story). The ability to say “I made that” is one that I cherish.
- J gives me energy. He knows when I am burnt out and tells me to go take a bath, or nap, or just be alone and read for half an hour. He does the chores and projects (like shower door removal) when I am unable (watching L), unmotivated (just blah), or just unwilling (doing dishes) to do them.
Well, look at that; I do have some sources of energy! I hope that these sources will sustain me through the next year; 2012 was so great that I have a feeling that 2013 will not be so smooth. Just one of those feelings . . .