It is that time of year again. The time to start thinking about everything in your life that you want to change. As much as I would like to go to the gym or take a Photoshop class as part of my resolutions, both of those require money that I do not have laying around right now. Ah, the joy of being a stay at home mom! So, part of my goal for next year is to get a job that I actually like or to get my ETSY shop making enough money to have that be my job. Neither of those made it to my resolution list, though. Here are my slightly vague, setting the bar low, resolutions for 2015.
I know this is vague, and a picture of neatly folded laundry doesn’t look very cluttered, but there are so many clothes there. So very many clothes. L has a drawer that is FULL of shirts, most of which he doesn’t even wear. Our house looks like Toys R Us threw up in it on any given day. My closet is filled with clothes that I would like to fit back into someday… hopefully… So, my resolution is to get rid of some of the crap that is cluttering my life. How do I measure this, you may be asking. Well, I haven’t quite figured that part out yet (quote from Will Scarlet in Robin Hood: Men in Tights).
This past year has been filled with WAY TOO MUCH fast food. We were doing good with cooking meals when I was getting Blue Apron boxes every week, but when I quit my job, I had to cut that cost out. Now, we are running to Jack in the Box all too often after the kids are finally asleep (9 pm). I have tried to cook at home, but with R being uber clingy and L being crazy after being at preschool all day, neither kid has let me even get a pot of water on the stove most evenings. So, I am going to be looking for (and probably blogging about) healthy and most importantly fast recipes that I can make on the weekday evenings. It also helps that I have a contest going with some friends on who can lose the most weight in 8 weeks. Maybe that will kickstart my healthy eating?
At the end of this year, I dipped my toes into the world of royal icing and fell in love with it. I also received a beautiful new mixer and many tools to continue my new hobby. So, I intend to put those to good use! Speaking of, I have cookie dough in the fridge right now, waiting to be made into cute woodland creature cookies. Oh, and fair warning to any of J’s coworkers that read my blog, he WILL be bringing cookies into work. I am going to be making cookies, but if I am going to keep the previous resolution, I need to get them out of the house as soon as they are done. My philosophy is: If one cookie is good, eight are better. So, out of my sight means not in my belly.
I find that whenever I have a free moment, I end up folding laundry or vacuuming the carpet or just picking up some of the clutter that is everywhere. I rarely just sit and play with the kids. I can do a project with them, but if I am asked to wait while L cooks dinner for me in his kitchen, I find myself cleaning or checking my email or doing anything except being in the moment with him. So, one more resolution is to play with the kids more. Be in the moment and just play. Try not to think about all the other things I need to be doing to keep the house running. Just play.
I seem to have lost it somewhere between growing up and feeling old. Uncaring bosses and screaming kids have sucked the joy right out of me. This past year, the few things that I have found happiness in doing, have had the joy taken out of them by someone else. So, I am going to keep looking for things that I can find joy in doing/making/being. I am going to do those things that make me happy and eff anyone that has issues with it. I am a Maker. I find joy in making beautiful things. (I am good at it too) So, I am going to focus more on doing those things that bring the joy back into my life and avoid the things (and people) that take it away. Just looking at the picture of R, so happy, makes me more determined to make this goal happen. I want my kids to remember me as a happy person, not someone that has been run over and depressed by life.