3 more weeks has passed since my last update and we all made it through the holiday season without major injuries or homocide. (It was quite a challenge) I am rapidly approaching the third trimester and it is scary. I am so not ready for this baby to be here yet; I remember thinking the same thing with L too. I wanted to have L's big boy room completed by Feb 1st so we can get him used to it. Nothing much has been done on that front. And until we have him in his new room, we can't get the nursery girl-ified. So yeah, I feel like I have an overwhelming list of things that need to get done. Most days I wish I could just stay home and get all the stuff that I need to do as a wife and especially mother done, but I also have a full time job. There are just not enough hours in the day for me right now.
On top of all that, my depression has started to kick back in. I was doing good for the past months, but I can feel it getting worse slowly. I think I am going to have to go back on meds sooner than I would like.
On a happier note, our little girl is kicking up a storm on my bladder every evening and night. It is so cool to feel her moving around inside me (a little freaky at times too) and it is a great reminder of why I am powering through the bad days. There is a light at the end of this pergnancy tunnel. Hopefully a good eating, good sleeping, colic free light. I am still craving cheezeburgers and other fatty, protien rich foods. I could eat swedish meatballs for every meal and not be sick of it for months. Mmmmm…. Great, now I am hungry again.
I have officially reached the halfway point, yay! And honestly, I have had it up to here (my hand is above my head) with this pregnancy. I was really hoping that I could write about how much I love my unborn child and how I cherish each little kick that I feel; that is just not the mood that is coming across today.
Today I am tired of being tired. All day, every day, complete exhaustion. I feel like a zombie each day that I manage to drag myself out of bed. I thought this was supposed to get better by now.
Sleeping has sucked for the past few weeks too. Between having to get up to pee every hour (not exaggerating) and J snoring because of his cold, I am getting about 5 hours of interrupted sleep each night. I can take a Unisom and crash out for the whole night, but then in the morning I am so groggy that I don’t even remember my drive to work. That is very scary.
And finally, the headaches. Why oh why won’t they stop? I am having severe headaches almost every day and we have discovered that my triggers are: lack of sleep (surprise!), and stress. With neither of those changing anytime soon, I doubt the headaches will be disappearing anytime soon.
Having complained about my problems, I know that no one is probably still reading this, but it feels good to vent it out. I wish I could just be enjoying the wonderful miracle of life that is occurring inside of me. I wish this pregnancy was going as easily as my first one. Many a night, laying awake in bed, I wonder why I thought this was a good idea. I am sure that it will all be worth it in the end, but right now, pregnancy sucks.