Now that I have been a SAHM for a whole month now, I wanted to write about my feelings about it. I have R home with me every day, and L still goes to a full day of preschool/daycare 5 days a week. I had both kids home with me last Friday and I was at the end of my rope by 2 pm. I think that it will get better when L is more used to being at home with R and I. He was just very demanding of my attention that whole day, which made it very difficult to take care of R and give her attention too.
Overall, I am enjoying the time that I have at home. I am able to pursue my dream of having a career where I am able to use my creative side, but I am also able to work flexible hours that I dictate. The day-to-day stuff is pretty tedious, but each sale or custom item request I get through my shop makes each day a little different. I am still trying to find the balance between cleaning, working on my shop, playing with the kids, and cooking that works best for our family. I have been spending more time playing than cleaning, but I doubt I will ever regret that! I am glad that I made my shop, it give me something that is mine. Something that is not about being a mom or wife.
Both kids like having me home, that is clear. R is eating good, gaining weight, and has hit a bunch of milestones this past month. L likes having me take him to school and daycare, especially because when I drop him off or pick him up I am not rushing around. I can take the time and have him show me what he did at school that day, I can give him the extra snuggles he asks for (demands) when he is having a rough morning. Our weekends have also become more fun, because now we are not spending the whole time running errands and cleaning house; we can do fun things on the weekend now!
I don’t know how long I will really be able to stay at home. Financially, it is still a big challenge (especially since we just got another hospital bill from R’s birth), but personally I am finding it very fulfilling. I am noticing the lack of adult interaction, but I am hoping to find a group of moms/dads that I can join. If not, I can always start my own group.
Wow, that is quite a rambling stream of consciousness. Oh well, that is what I came to write today, so that is what you get. Proofreading is for suckers. LOL